I don’t understand why I always get stuck with shitty friends. Or maybe I’m just too sensitive. Yeah, probably just sensitive.
I want out already. I’m tired of feeling like a child. I start college in a few months. I don’t want to live here anymore, I want my own place. I want my own car so I can do what I want, when I want. I can’t wait any longer.
I really wish I had a friend. Not friends, just a friend. A friend who would hang out with me all the time. A friend who liked my boyfriend and would be his friend too. A friend who would want to hangout with the both of us. Someone I could go shopping with. Someone I could tell all the cute things I feel for Ben and how much I love him. Someone who would stay, unlike the rest of them.
I don’t need one, I want one.
Your only concern is yourself. That’s literally all you care about. You don’t care if you hurt your best friends feelings, you don’t care about school, you care about nothing. Your main concerns are partying and alcohol. You got in a car accident while drunk. is that not enough of an eye opener for you? You could of killed someone, maybe even yourself and you don’t even care. You changed nothing. You still party every weekend, still worry about the same shit. Get your head out of your ass and realize your priorities. Stop focusing on dumb shit and think about school for once.You have two classes you need to make up and what do you do? Find two people to do it for you and pay them. Have some fucken responsibility. Every single math class you don’t pay attention, copy off of me every single time, and expect me to let you do that all the time. what do i get in return? not a damn thing. you dont talk to me unless you need something. you dont ask me to hang out. im nothing to you, which is really sad because i consider you one of my best friends.
You basically need to get your priorities straight, because after high school things wont get handed to you as easy as they are now.
I can’t wait for karma to bite you in the ass.
You know what, it IS NOT my fault you are so miserable. And I don’t feel bad for you at all. It’s all your fault. You complain so much about how you’re so fat and no one will ever love you. Then get your ass up and exercise. Stop eating out so much, eat healthier. You have many options for that department. You constantly complain about money, find a different job! You got offered one that pays way more, but did you take it? No. you must not have that much of a money situation. You complain about no one inviting you anywhere and people always talking shit about you. Well, stop being such a bitch.You are the meanest person i have ever met, you complain about ANYTHING in every single conversation, and always tell people how miserable you are. Now tell me, who on earth would want to hang out with a person like that. No one. Why dont you think i never want to hang out with you? I just love you yelling at me 24/7 because you’re in a bad mood for no reason at all. I love you trying to tell me what to do with my life.
So if you want to be happy, change. It’s not impossible.
I barely woke up and I’ve been crying all morning. This is wonderful.
It must be nice to be thin and not have to worry about how you look, or what you wear, or ways to be comfortable. Because it fucken sucks having to deal with all that.
this is a feeling i can’t even begin to explain. last night made me realize so much. i realized how much i really do love you. i realized how crazy in love i am with you. everyday you give me a reason to fall in love with you even more. the way you laugh. the way you think. the way you talk. the way you look at me. the way you let me get away with things that you shouldn’t haha. the way you treat me. the way you kiss me. the way you hold my hand. the way you play guitar, you’re so good at it. its crazy. the way you sing. i love it and i could listen to you 24/7. everything. everything about you is just perfect to me. you’ve never failed me. and i know you never will. i love us. i love you’re family. you don’t understand how awesome it is to be surrounded by such an awesome family. a family that’s happy. i don’t have that at home and never will. at least i get to experience it a little when im at your house, so thank you for that. you make me happy, ben. happier than i’ve ever been. you keep me sane. you keep me calm. you are the reason i look forward to my future, because i know it will make up for all the shitty things i’ve been through in the past. i know we’ll make it. i don’t care what anyone says, i KNOW we will. what we have is too strong for anything to tear us apart. i can only try and explain how much i love you and how much you mean to me, and i know i didn’t accomplish even half of that by writing this. just know i love you with all my heart. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you.