nothing but bullshit

I don’t understand why I always get stuck with shitty friends. Or maybe I’m just too...

Tue, 07 May 2013 18:08:54 -0400

I don’t understand why I always get stuck with shitty friends. Or maybe I’m just too sensitive. Yeah, probably just sensitive.

I want out already. I’m tired of feeling like a child. I start college in a few months. I...

Sun, 05 May 2013 13:55:35 -0400

I want out already. I’m tired of feeling like a child. I start college in a few months. I don’t want to live here anymore, I want my own place. I want my own car so I can do what I want, when I want. I can’t wait any longer.

Skinny is my key to happiness. Beside the love of my life of course.

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 22:33:02 -0400

Skinny is my key to happiness. Beside the love of my life of course.

I really wish I had a friend. Not friends, just a friend. A friend who would hang out with me all...

Mon, 01 Apr 2013 18:17:12 -0400

I really wish I had a friend. Not friends, just a friend. A friend who would hang out with me all the time. A friend who liked my boyfriend and would be his friend too. A friend who would want to hangout with the both of us. Someone I could go shopping with. Someone I could tell all the cute things I feel for Ben and how much I love him. Someone who would stay, unlike the rest of them.

I don’t need one, I want one.

Your only concern is yourself. That’s literally all you care about. You don’t care if...

Mon, 01 Apr 2013 00:06:32 -0400

Your only concern is yourself. That’s literally all you care about. You don’t care if you hurt your best friends feelings, you don’t care about school, you care about nothing. Your main concerns are partying and alcohol. You got in a car accident while drunk. is that not enough of an eye opener for you? You could of killed someone, maybe even yourself and you don’t even care. You changed nothing. You still party every weekend, still worry about the same shit. Get your head out of your ass and realize your priorities. Stop focusing on dumb shit and think about school for once.You have two classes you need to make up and what do you do? Find two people to do it for you and pay them. Have some fucken responsibility. Every single math class you don’t pay attention, copy off of me every single time, and expect me to let you do that all the time. what do i get in return? not a damn thing. you dont talk to me unless you need something. you dont ask me to hang out. im nothing to you, which is really sad because i consider you one of my best friends.

You basically need to get your priorities straight, because after high school things wont get handed to you as easy as they are now.

I can’t wait for karma to bite you in the ass.

You know what, it IS NOT my fault you are so miserable. And I don’t feel bad for you at all....

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 00:03:21 -0400

You know what, it IS NOT my fault you are so miserable. And I don’t feel bad for you at all. It’s all your fault. You complain so much about how you’re so fat and no one will ever love you. Then get your ass up and exercise. Stop eating out so much, eat healthier. You have many options for that department. You constantly complain about money, find a different job! You got offered one that pays way more, but did you take it? No. you must not have that much of a money situation. You complain about no one inviting you anywhere and people always talking shit about you. Well, stop being such a bitch.You are the meanest person i have ever met, you complain about ANYTHING in every single conversation, and always tell people how miserable you are. Now tell me, who on earth would want to hang out with a person like that. No one. Why dont you think i never want to hang out with you? I just love you yelling at me 24/7 because you’re in a bad mood for no reason at all. I love you trying to tell me what to do with my life.

So if you want to be happy, change. It’s not impossible.

I barely woke up and I’ve been crying all morning. This is wonderful.

Sun, 26 Aug 2012 13:03:15 -0400

I barely woke up and I’ve been crying all morning. This is wonderful.

It must be nice to be thin and not have to worry about how you look, or what you wear, or ways to be...

Tue, 14 Aug 2012 18:48:59 -0400

It must be nice to be thin and not have to worry about how you look, or what you wear, or ways to be comfortable. Because it fucken sucks having to deal with all that.

I can’t wait to live in a house filled with happiness.

Tue, 14 Aug 2012 18:34:46 -0400

I can’t wait to live in a house filled with happiness.

this is a feeling i can’t even begin to explain. last night made me realize so much. i...

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 00:22:12 -0400

this is a feeling i can’t even begin to explain. last night made me realize so much. i realized how much i really do love you. i realized how crazy in love i am with you. everyday you give me a reason to fall in love with you even more. the way you laugh. the way you think. the way you talk. the way you look at me. the way you let me get away with things that you shouldn’t haha. the way you treat me. the way you kiss me. the way you hold my hand. the way you play guitar, you’re so good at it. its crazy. the way you sing. i love it and i could listen to you 24/7. everything. everything about you is just perfect to me. you’ve never failed me. and i know you never will. i love us. i love you’re family. you don’t understand how awesome it is to be surrounded by such an awesome family. a family that’s happy. i don’t have that at home and never will. at least i get to experience it a little when im at your house, so thank you for that. you make me happy, ben. happier than i’ve ever been. you keep me sane. you keep me calm. you are the reason i look forward to my future, because i know it will make up for all the shitty things i’ve been through in the past. i know we’ll make it. i don’t care what anyone says, i KNOW we will. what we have is too strong for anything to tear us apart. i can only try and explain how much i love you and how much you mean to me, and i know i didn’t accomplish even half of that by writing this. just know i love you with all my heart. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you.

Why don’t I think? I don’t understand. I don’t take the time to try and understand...

Wed, 18 Jul 2012 17:17:53 -0400

Why don’t I think? I don’t understand. I don’t take the time to try and understand things. I don’t ever think, about anything. It really bothers me. The two people I care about most think about everything. Seriously. They think about the littlest things, but the way they think about it amazes me. They dissect it and come up with something crazy, yet it always makes sense. I want to be able to do that. I want to be able to talk to them about my thoughts. But I can’t. And when I do think of something, I won’t share it with anyone because it’s such a stupid thought. Maybe i avoid thinking because i’m scared. There are many things i’m constantly thinking about, but they are things that i’m scared of. My future, my insecurities, my life. I don’t want to think about them because I don’t want to be scared of them. And I know if I take the time to think about those things I will make myself go crazy. Or maybe i already am. Who knows.

I'm that friend.

Wed, 18 Jul 2012 16:48:45 -0400

I’ll be there for you. Until you find someone better, find someone who can give you more, I’ll be there. I’ll always be there. Whether it’s late at night or early in the morning, you’ll always have me. I know that I’m not the greatest, I’m not the most talented, or have the most things, but I’ll be there, until you find someone who can do more for you. That’s who I am, the friend that’s always there until something better comes along.

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Fri, 13 Jul 2012 03:36:20 -0400

I’m so sensitive. I cry for everything. Its ridiculous.

Fri, 13 Jul 2012 02:29:58 -0400

I’m so sensitive. I cry for everything. Its ridiculous.

Who knew.

Wed, 11 Jul 2012 00:32:20 -0400

Who knew it was even possible to care and love somebody this much. I didn’t. And I never imagined of being in this situation. I always wished for it. I always hoped it would happen. And it did. I feel so happy to say that. I didn’t know i’d fall in love. But i’m glad I did. Because in all honesty, I wouldn’t want to be in love with anyone else. This is a wonderful feeling and I question why some people don’t want it. Being in a relationship is great. You just have to find the right person. Yeah times can be hard, but I think the good times definitely overpower the bad. Who wouldn’t want someone to wake up to every morning? Having someone to have deep/funny/sad/personal conversations with. Having someone there to ask how your day is going or how it went. Having someone who cares about you. Having someone to love and being loved back. Having someone to go out with on dates or just stay home lazy in bed and cuddle. Someone to experience life with. There is just so many things to look forward to. I love it. I love our relationship. And I love him. I couldn’t ask for anything or anyone better.

I don't think i'll ever get over this.

Wed, 11 Jul 2012 00:14:32 -0400

It amazes me to know that the people i was closest to and had the most memories with, are no longer around. Knowing someone for years obviously doesn’t matter. I don’t know what happened to my group of girlfriends. I question it everyday. Those girls meant everything to me. We all went through so much together. We watched each other grow up. We all entered the real world together. When I really think about it, there is really no reason why any of us shouldn’t be friends anymore. Seriously. Nothing dramatic happened. Nothing happened at all. Which is so sad. You can be best friends, hang out every day, talk 24/7, and that really wouldn’t matter. Friends are nothing. Friends don’t matter. They all screw you over in the long run.

I really don’t know why I question who my best friends are all the time. Robin and Emilee have...

Sun, 08 Jul 2012 02:28:38 -0400

I really don’t know why I question who my best friends are all the time. Robin and Emilee have been there for me since sixth grade. I know for a fact that I can call either one of them and they will be there for me. They are true best friends. Yeah we don’t hang out all the time, but when we do, it makes up for all the time we’ve been apart. I don’t think I’ve ever been so comfortable around anyone. I’ve never opened up to anyone as much as I have with them. We can be serious, we can be silly, we can get wasted together, we can cry together. We can seriously talk about anything with each other. I love both of those girls so much. All I need in life is Benjamin, Robin, and Emilee and everything will be good.

I think we both have a different definition of ‘best friend’

Fri, 06 Jul 2012 00:32:03 -0400

I think we both have a different definition of ‘best friend’

I can't even begin to describe how much I'm in love with him.

Thu, 05 Jul 2012 22:17:51 -0400

I liked him for so long. And now that he’s all mine, I plan on never letting him go. I knew that he was everything I wanted. I knew we’d click instantly. I knew we’d be perfect for each other. I will seriously do anything and everything to keep this relationship. I can’t see myself without him. I can’t see the rest of my life without him. He’s my best friend. He’s my better half. He is so good to me. Its crazy how good he treats me. Sometimes I think he treats me better than he should. I can be a huge pain in the ass sometimes. And the fact that he puts up with me and all my bullshit amazes me. That just makes me even more crazy about him. I’ve never had something like this. I’ve never even imagined having something like this. But the fact that I get to have it with him makes me the happiest girl in the world. I’m one lucky lady. Seriously. Benjamin is such a wonderful person. He deserves so much more then I can give him. But I will ALWAYS try my hardest to make him happy and give him anything he wants/needs. He deserves the world. I love him so much and I look forward to the years to come with him.

I piss myself off so much sometimes.

Thu, 05 Jul 2012 02:53:11 -0400

I piss myself off so much sometimes.